I have a major obsession with my own father. Ive asked a lot of gay men on line if they have any similiar feelings and the response usually runs 60 no 40 yes. But the ones who do respond yes tend towards the obsessive like myself. I think the most important factor was being introduced to sex at a young age by an older man. In my case, a 60 yr old widower down the street began inviting me down to his basement to look at some old models he had put together. As it turned out, he had other plans in mind, and I would continue to visit him 2 or 3 times a week from the age of 7 to 13.  Once this “light switch” had been thrown, I started to sexualize all the older men I came in contact with, especially my father. It started when I would take his worn boxer shorts out of the family hamper. I would stand in front of the full length mirror on the back of the bathroom door and inhale the mixed scent of sweat and piss. Then I would slide them on, always having to bunch them up with one hand to keep them from falling down, and masturbate knowing that my ball sack was rubbing against the same fabric that once held his own nuts. Every thing about my father was a stimulation. When he took me to the barbers, I made sure to get the same cut he had( a flat top) heavily laquered with Dax hair grease. I still use Dax and even just the smell of it gives me an immediate erection. Another favorite of mine was to slip into the bathroom right after my father had taken a bath. I would rush in behind him and lock the door, then immediately put the stopper into the tub drain. I would climb into his used bath water and soak in the warm gray water filled with floating pubic hairs. Although my father walked around the house in his boxers fairly frequently, the first time I can recall seeing him entirely naked occurred when I was 9 and we (my two younger brothersm father, and grandfather) were allin the beach changing house on Long Beach Island in NJ. The shower stalls were about 5 feet wideand, being a busy summer day, all 5 of us had to cram into one. While my father’s cock drew my immediate attention, my grandfathers was just as fascinating to me. An old mans cock and especially low hanging balls are mesmerizing to boys, and what with my experience with our old neighbor, I knew just what I could do withthose two big hairy cocks if given the chance. . I could just imagine the 5 of us in one circle jerk. Unfortunatelyit never came to be. I did introduce my two brothers to our neighbor and continued to play with both of them until I moved out of home. When I was 17, my mother caught me in the bathtub with my 9 yr.old brother. She never said a word about it= to him or I. My turnon to older men kept me very active.  By the time I was 13, I had outgrown my older neighbor, though he continued to see my younger brothers. He had, however, introduced me to a 45 year old married policeman.That went on until I 16

   Over the years, I have continued to fantasize about my father. I have also continued to raid laundry hampers when ever I make visits to my brothers (where dad lives now). My youngest brother is also gay and we have often talked about those days, which almost always leads to us masturbating together.

I’ve had sex with a Brazilian from Grindr who had an 8 inch cock and was very girthy…..he wasn’t even good. He fucked me and it wasn’t even pleasurable. He was too rough and didn’t know how to use his cock. It just goes to prove that size doesn’t really mean anything. I’d much rather someone who is 5-6 inches and knows what they are doing.

I’m the creator of the “Incest Vacation Part 1 & 2. I’m so glad that I’m not the only one with that type of story. It is very taboo to have sexual feelings for a family member let alone perform them. I know this might sound a little twisted but I have had feelings for most of the men in my family. I mostly thought about my dad and step uncle. They were the most attractive out of all of them. When I was about 11 years old, My aunt invited me to her house to play with my little cousins. I remember walking into the living room and seeing my uncle on the couch with only his white briefs on. I didn’t know how to react so I just pretended like I didn’t even see him. Appearantly that was his favorite thing to do, walk around the house with his bulge out…for the whole house to see. He was very tall about 6’11, he was heavy set (mostly in his stomach) and hairy. He basicly looked like a hairy pregnant man, everything was skinny but his stomach. That was such a turn on and I was only 11. I remember looking for my aunt that day and I thought she might be inside her room, so I opened the door and saw my uncle laying on the bed sleeping with his bulge out. He had changed into grey underwear and I could see his hairy balls poping out from the side. I wanted to smell his balls upclose and wanted to give him a blow job so bad. The room smelled like sweat and kinda like ballsack after a long day at work or school. hahaha. I closed the door and before I knew it, my mom was honking the car horn outside. That was the last time I every saw him like that, unfortunatly lol.

So the next story is going to be about my father, he and my mother divorced when I was a baby ; so I was only able to see him every other weekend. Me and my sister went to his house and we ate dinner and watched a movie. Then it was time to take a shower, I was at that age were I knew how to clean myself and my father rarly asked if I needed help. So I was done and then it was my fathers turn to shower. Me being curious, I wanted to take a peek at him. I stepped on the toilet and looked above the shower curtain only to see him washing his 8in uncut cock, omg I have never seen something so amazing before. This sounds so wrong but back then I didn’t know better. I watched him pull his foreskin back and he washed his cock, he grabbed his hairy balls and played with them a bit before rubbing a bar of soap on them. He was a very hairy man and but well groomed. He was maybe in his late 30’s when this happened. I snuck out of the bathroom without being seen or heard by anyone. I went to bed that night wishing I could maybe put his dick in my mouth. I’m not insane I promise you haha, just thinking about it now makes me so hard. I always wished he took advantage of me as a kid, like tell me to suck him off or to let him fuck me. But he was a normal father and respected me….unfortunatly lol omg hahahaha. But as a couple years went by I wanted to make a move of my own. I found a Macy’s Magazine by his tv and opened it, I was totally surprised when I saw stapled pages of gay porn on the inside. I was so amazed, so I ran into my room and started to touch myself. The pictures were of guys naked on the beach, HOT!!! lol. He walked in seeing my hands in my shorts and asked what I was doing but I just played it off. That was the last time I did something like that. I also stopped seeing my father very shortly after but not for that reason. He just never showed up anymore, and we never even got an explenation on why he left. I’m now 17 years old and still wondering why he left. The last time I talked to him was in 2009, he tried to talk to me on facebook and during the conversation, as the questions I asked him grew larger,he just stopped replying. That’s pretty much it. I hope this aroused some of you guys reading haha.

I want to thank the creator for “Gay Confessions” I think we all have a natural desire to express the way we feel, the things we tend to keep, secrets can overwhelming our souls. We can only trust that these confessions will help us all move forward, help others with their struggles and maybe learn as we move forward into our journey on life. 

I must have been around 13-14 years old when I had a sexual experience with my uncle. He was the youngest, he must have been in his mid 20’s, maybe 25 at the time. He had just came into the state from Mexico and had been living with my parents for about 3 months, mostly taking care of us kids after school. It must have been a weekend, because it felt life days at after it happened. I remember he was taking a shower, he called me into the bathroom to hand him a bar of soap, and asked if I wanted to hop into the shower with him. I was curious of course, and scared as well, thought he was joking and I left out. Seemed like a long time had passed and he finally made it out of the shower into the bedroom. After a couple of minutes I noticed that he was naked, on the floor and looking at magazine, he began to tease me. He made sure there was enough crack near the doorway for me to notice that he was playing with his cock and ass. My heart was beating fast, and I thought it was at the tip of my throat, that pressure and that tension of being so fucking scared of what was happening. It took me a bit to realize what he was doing, must have been no more that a couple feet away from the doorway, enough to see his 8in uncut cock, his flawless body, very toned and hair in all the right places. I remember he was more lighter in skin tone and blond hair down his happy trail. I felt a strong desire after a couple moments, and he finally told me to come in and help him out. It was easer for the experience to happen but after what was coming was the worst. I remember we was polite and nice, asked if I wanted to experiment, touch his cock, suck his cock and have him play with my ass, I remember he made sure his cock was lubed up with saliva, then he fucked me for a while, came all inside me. I didn’t think much of it first, I was excited, curious on how far this would go on, and after the finish. He told me to go was up and thats when he became evil! Throughout the days, weeks and months, I was his target, to beat- up, tease, call me names, he was a fucking bully growing up. I remember once he said to me ” you made me do this, its your fault”. 

I had other experience with an older uncle and my cousin. Please reply with comments, questions or thoughts. I’m in my early 30’s and I still find it arousing the thoughts of having sex with family men, if they be uncles, fathers, cousins, and brothers. I have learned to deal with the desires, and look for others with similar stories. 

    I am a cleancut appearing guy who comes off as just another regular gay man who could be your neighbor or best friend. And also possibly like your neighbor or best friend, I am deeply into that growing part of the gay world that isnt one we care to share with straight people. I am old enough to remember the 70s and 80s when gay sex was pretty vanilla. Fucking, sucking, some fisting and maybe piss play. Even those last two were rarities back then. Beginning in the 90s, I watched as more and more men, starting at a younger age, began to get into practices that even developed their own furniture. I got my first rim stool and sling at that time. The advent of the internet had also begun to drive men into hypersexual awareness. It soon became standard practice to spend 5 or 6 hours a day on line. Now I far exceed those early numbers. With the deluge of porn available, we also became exposed to practices we had never seen or participated in before. Extreme porn became the porn of choice, and soon we were tossing out our antiquated 12 inch black dildos for 18 inchers and butt plugs with bases the width of a 2 litre bottle. You could judge how we were so naturally adapting to our insatiable urges by the products that were being produced and primarily marketed to the gay customer. Men could now buy headgear that included a funnel with an attached hose to the mouth that served as a urinal. Also on sale was a fuck machine that simulated the pumping motion for an attached dildo-with a choice of speeds. On line, support groups sprang up that catered to masturbation and had memberships in the 1000s. Because of the lack of inhibition these sites are sounding boards for men to share details or fantasies of every concievable practice.

    Of course, a lot of new trends seem to originate or at least get a major boost from San Francisco. I go once a year and visit friends who are very active sexually in the bars and also several sex clubs. It was through them that I got into K9 and attended an event at which I observed 4 men fellating a stallion. That, I am told, is making some farmers in California a good deal of extra money these days. One farm outside of SF has a 3 month waiting list! In the mean time. a company called Exotic Erotics is marketing life cast stallion dildos, with lifelike pink and black coloring. They come 22 inches long but the company has a line of other animals that, while not as long, are massively thick. I can tell you that the stallion dildo will have you seeing stars while spurting out cum. Another club my friend took me to was a hobosexual mens club. About 30 members share connections with homeless men for sex, usually for a small amount of money. I had sex with an old black man in his 60s with what had to be an 11 inch dick.

     The irony of all this is that at a period when heterosexuals are most accepting and familiar with gay people, they know less if anything about this part of the gay world. While it may not be the majority, there are many men into this alternate lifestyle, and thanks to the filth on the internet, its growing all the time. And were not just talking dirty old men..you see handsome 21 or 22 year old twinks out there sucking on horse cock!